The days have been difficult & there has been many tears. Little Cora & I have spent most of our time since Wednesday snuggling in my big chair with curtains drawn against the dreary gray rain soaked days outside. It has been the television which has been a welcome distraction for me. I sat for many hours endlessly flipping through channels watching snippets of the history channel, comedy shows, biographies, news, pieces of movies here & there & yes, I even watched all that wedding pomp & pageantry over there across the ocean in that big London town this morning....right from the beginning too. As much as I rant about television programming sometimes, it sure came through these past few days for me & helped to keep my mind off of Checkers & Max being gone.
THIS BLUE JAY KEPT A WARY EYE ON ME THIS AFTERNOON
Kelly headed for Spencerport Wednesday to help her Mother who was being released from the hospital that afternoon. Things seem to be going reasonably well there so far but I think it's going to be a long road for her Mother recovering from that knee replacement.
MOTORMOUSE ASLEEP ON THE BACK OF CHECKER'S COUCH
The Zurich Veterinary Clinic phoned this morning to say Checkers ashes had arrived. It was pouring rain as I loaded little Cora (Motormouse) in the Jeep & we headed out on the 20 minute drive to Zurich. It was a sad tearful drive but once we had picked up Checkers I felt comforted in knowing we were bringing her home. Cora & I talked to Checkers all the way back & that was a big help for me. Next week we will bring Max's ashes home. I know it isn't the same but somehow I just feel like the Bayfield Bunch will kind of all be together again. When we travel south this year the guys will come with us. I know it will be just ashes in the boxes but we just somehow feel closer to them by having them closer to us.
IT WAS A TEAR FILLED DRIVE ON THE WAY TO PICK UP CHECKERS BUT WE FELT BETTER ON THE WAY HOME WHEN SHE WAS WITH US AGAIN
I have gone through a lot of emotions this past week & a half & I will write about those feelings at some point in the future. I will also write about why we had to make the decisions we had to make because of both Max & Checkers health problems. I'm just not up to writing about all that yet, but I will. Motormouse is doing fine & we even managed a zany game of toys yesterday. She is sticking pretty close to me, & me to her.
THIS LITTLE RED SQUIRREL NEVER BOTHERS OUR BIRD FEEDERS
The rains finally subsided today around noon & by 1 o'clock we were beginning to get some sun splashes through the trees. That was like a pure shot of energy for me after spending the last few long dismal days in the house. Out came the garden hose along with a warm sudsy bucket of water. Pulled the Motorcycle into the driveway & got myself to work on a big 2 hour Spring motorcycle clean up complete with a good waxing. Had the day been warmer I would have taken the bike for a ride.....maybe tomorrow:))
All in all, I am feeling a bit better & will soon have things back into perspective but I also know there will always remain a sadness...............deep within.
RED WING BLACKBIRD
A heartfelt & sincere thank you to everyone for all your comments, shouts, emails & Facebook messages once again. So very, very much appreciated by Kelly & I. And, the little Motormouse too:))
FEMALE EASTERN TOWHEE & A WHITE THROATED SPARROW...(THANKS JUDY)
I will have Groaner's Corner up & running again in a few days. Just not quite there yet.........
THE BIRDFEEDER BULLY'S ARE BACK......GRACKLES!!!!
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The only thing better than right now will someday be the memories of right
now...... AL.
So nice to have you back...Thanks for the update, I was worried...
ReplyDeleteThese sad days will pass. Some day when you think of your two friends you will smile as you remember some of the funny and sweet times you had together.
ReplyDeleteBut, yes, the sadness deep within will always be there. My girls live on in my heart.
Glad to hear you got Checkers' ashes back. That is what we plan to do when the time comes for our furkids.
ReplyDeleteLove the squirrel pictures. I know most of them are a pain to bird lovers, but I get such a kick out of watching their antics.
Enjoy the sunshine and hopefully you can get out on the bike soon. We are home for a few days and had a little sun today and a lot of rain.
Good to see you perking up. Be patient with yourself. Only You know what to do for YOU!!!
ReplyDeleteAl, I would keep a close eye on that squirrel if I were you! He looks like he might be a pole vault coach. If so, then you know that you were not just seeing things the other day!
ReplyDeleteOur thoughts are with you, especially with Kelly being gone right now. Take care.
You sure make Motormouse look so cute in all her photos. You could maybe get her a pair of goggles and she could ride the motorcycle with you.
Thanks again for sharing.
AL and Kelly, Just remember that you were Checkers an Max's number one. They were great pets but you were great leaders of the pack. What more can a dog ask for. You gave them a great life. Remember the good and great times.
ReplyDeleteMarge
Here is a thought for you:
ReplyDelete"People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?"
The six-year-old continued, "Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long."
How comforting it will be for you to have all the Bayfield Bunch traveling together again.
Hugs for Cora, and Happy Trails, to you two. Penny, TX
Looks like the bird on the left is a female Eastern towhee, and the bird on the right is a white-throated sparrow.
ReplyDeleteAll of my four footed pals, though gone now, travel with me on my life's road. Rex, Hannah, Mickey, Nikki, Chumley, Patra, Hiedi, Clifford, Pete, Amos, Sam, Sarah, ... It's a very full house in this rig along with Emma and me. :(
Good to see you back Al, Gotta keep chippin away, your holding you own... I'm sitting down here in 80* sunshiney days thinking of my Harley up there in my barn in South Dakota... In a little over a month, I'll be cranking her up and heading out in those hills for a little time talking with my loved ones. Seem's I'm closer to them out there...I guess that's cause it's God's country... Cheer's my friend.
ReplyDeleteMy girls have been getting extra love this week. Not sure they appreciate it all the time, but I needed it. It will be good to have Max and Checkers home again and close to you. Hugs to Cora.
ReplyDeleteMuch blessings to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful -- wonderful -- awesome pics! Cora is so cute -- you just gotta love that face...hope the two of you can get outside & have more sunshine to enjoy. Hang in there -- glad to hear you are feeling some better. Take care.
ReplyDeleteGood to hear from you again. I've been thinking of you these last few days and hoping you were all right. These things take time. At least you have little Cora.
ReplyDeleteJo
welcome back, Al!..writing is therapy and good for you for sharing your day with all of us...
ReplyDeletelove the 'Checkers box'..it is beautiful!..
have a nice weekend!
Thinking of you and Kelly and Cora ...
ReplyDeleteYes, we too, have a tin of ashes from a special doggy girl from our lives. I was going to sprinkle them under my lawn chair each time we went camping-- a little at a time. That is where she always was, under my chair. But, instead, we decided to spread them on a campground island where Steve and I will be spread after we go....
So sorry to hear about your recent losses. It's tough enough losing one family member, but 2 in such a short amount of time is unimaginable. Let the tears flow as they come.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your emotions and a double thank you for the kind comments you posted on my blog. I have been following as you've struggled with your decisions about what your future looks like and I appreciate knowing that I am not alone. Although it's not always easy to open up, I hope that by sharing some of my feelings, it will help at least one other person.
My thoughts are with you.
Several years ago, a special pet of mine died a difficult death. I felt terrible about it, because I felt it was partly due to the fact that we pursued aggressive vet treatment when I should have let him go.
ReplyDeleteI fell apart when he died in my arms in great distress, and couldn't pull myself together until Odel brought home her ashes several days later. Intellectually, it made no sense at all that I got such comfort from her ashes, but I did... and life went on.
From that experience, I learned NEVER to try to keep a pet alive for my own selfish reasons. When the time came to euthanize our two traveling cats, Tucker and then Luna, we made the decision at the right time, and I was able to "let them go" with sadness, but no guilt - including letting go of their remains. Yet I still carry the ashes of the cat I felt I let down through my selfishness.
You gave Max and Checkers the greatest lives possible. I'm glad you feel comforted that Checkers is back with the clan - I surely understand the feeling, and I understanding talking to the ashes. We humans are such odd creatures!
Brighter days ahead, friend.
When people talk of heartbreak, they don't always talk about that huge actual physical pain, that hole in the heart. I know you are feeling that, and wish for you healing and a heart filled again with wonderful memories of your sweet companions. I am so sorry, Al.
ReplyDeleteBlessed are the ones who know how to give & receive love from a pet :)
ReplyDeleteWe travel with our passed on loved ones also.
Give motormouse a smochie.
You all three are in our thought.
phxmtngirl
Losing a loving pet is always very hard and you have had a double dose... my prayers are with you & Kelly and time will heal your sadness as you remember all the fun times warmly. Great photos of all the little critters and birds.
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Donna