Saturday, December 28, 2024

THERE WAS A SADNESS IN MY THOUGHTS THIS MORNING

 IT WAS SO NICE TO SEE SUNSHINE, GREEN FIELDS, BLUE SKIES, AND RUNNING WATER EARLIER TODAY
Trying to access our online bank account late Friday afternoon I was told by a pop-up screen that I needed to enter a verification code number that was somewhere on my iPhone. With all the stress and tension of late, I  had myself a meltdown which put me in a foul mood for the rest of the day and it only got worse the more I tried to figure it out.  I of course ended up with a locked screen on the iPhone again.  In the end, I was once more dead in the techno water and there was nothing I could do about it until Monday morning when the bank opens.  Whether they can help me with this, I have no idea.  I was so discouraged with everything and yet I didn't know how to give up.  I stuffed the iPhone in a drawer where I couldn't see it and be reminded of it, and now wait for Monday morning.  I am so tired of all this!!  I'm sorry for this not being a brighter paragraph, but it's just where I happen to be right now and I needed to vent my frustration somewhere!!  I so miss the love of my life and my guiding light.

My day began shortly after 5 a.m. With my laptop, I looked at some YouTube stuff, wrote the opening paragraph for the blog, and generally just sat here sometimes nodding off and most times not.  During one of my nodding-off periods, my closed eyelids suddenly lit up with a bright light.  Opening my eyes, I saw right away it was the morning sunrise, and the Sun was actually poking through the pine trees and lighting me up through the living room window.  I was encouraged by that and it wasn't long before I was on my feet getting some breakfast ready for Pheebs.  An hour later we were in the Subaru heading into Bayfield.  And, with Pheebs window down too.  She was loving it.  Of course, I had Subie's heater going but not on high.  I think we were already over 40F with clearing skies and the temps reached 54F later.  A swing down around the harbor netted a few sunny morning pics and oh how nice to see sunlit colors again.  From the harbor, we slipped through Bayfield, topped up Subie's gas tank at the Bayfield Garage, and headed south out of town.

 IT WAS THE BLUE SKY PUTTING THE BLUE COLOR INTO LAKE HURON THIS MORNING
 
 SUNLIGHT BRINGING OUT THE MORNING COLORS
 I WONDER IF THEY WILL EVER GET THIS FISHING BOAT BACK INTO THE WATER
 THE GALS ARE DRINKING THEIR COFFEE OUTSIDE THIS MORNING
Left off the Bluewater highway onto Crystal Springs Road and then a right turn onto the Bronson Line and we were soon cruising through a sun-filled countryside with acres of green fields where most of the last month's heavy snowstorm had already melted off.  My Friday afternoon and evening anger was gone but there was a sadness in my thoughts as I looked at Pheebs and how she is aging faster now.  I so much enjoy having her right beside me loving her car rides with her nose out the window and her ears flapping in the open air. I thought a lot about Kelly as I watched the morning sunshine play its shadows across the open farm fields and woodlots.  So many good times we had especially in those RV traveling years.  Pheebs and I didn't go all the way down the Bronson Line but made a U-Turn back in the direction of Bayfield.  The thought had occurred to me that we might be able to get a bit of a walk-in at the Bayfield Cemetary.

OH NOW I LOVED THE COLOR GREEN AS WE CRUISED THROUGH THE COUNTRYSIDE
 GUESS I HAD 'GREEN' ON MY MIND
The roads in the cemetery were a little squooshy being a mix of snow, water, and mud.  But, no matter, there were open patches of grass to walk on so that is what we did.  It was about this time that the cloud cover closed in again and we lost the sunshine until later in the day when it returned.  After a bit, we were back to the car and on our way home.  It turned out to be a slow afternoon and I couldn't seem to drum up enough energy or enthusiasm for getting anything done.  But, at least the Sun had come out for a while today and that made it all worthwhile again by dampening my anger and lifting my Spirits.  I knew there would be days like these and I also know that there will be better days ahead.  I just have to be patient with myself and try my best not to let things get me down. I do understand there will be snags in the road and I have to better learn how to deal with those snags when they crop up without getting so upset about it.  

 THE ROAD LEADING INTO THE CEMETARY LOOKED A LITTLE WONKY
 WHEN I SAW PATCHES OF GRASS I KNEW WE WOULD BE ABLE TO GET A WEE WALK IN
 IT DIDN'T TAKE PHEEBS LONG TO TRACK DOWN SOME SMELLS
 THE CEMETARY GROUNDS KEEPER IS GOING TO HAVE A BIG CLEAN-UP JOB IN THE SPRING 
 PHEEBS IS CAREFUL TO STAY OFF THAT ICE
 I AM SO GLAD TO SEE OUR DRIVEWAY FINALLY EMERGING FROM UNDER ALL THAT SNOW AND ICE
Al's Music Box:)) Old Man is a song written and performed by Canadian rock singer-songwriter and guitarist Neil Young from his 1972 album Harvest. "Old Man" was released as a single on Reprise Records in the spring of 1972, reaching number 4 in Canada, and number 31 on the Billboard Hot 100 singles chart for the week ending June 3.  The song was written for the caretaker of the Northern California Broken Arrow Ranch, which Young purchased for US$350,000 in 1970 (equivalent to US$2,746,015 in 2023). The song compares a young man's life to an old man's and shows that the young man has, to some extent, the same needs as the old one. James Taylor played six-string banjo (tuned like a guitar) and sang on the song, and Linda Ronstadt also contributed vocals.  In the film Heart of Gold, Young introduces the song as follows:  About that time when I wrote ("Heart of Gold"), and I was touring, I had also—just, you know, being a rich hippie for the first time—I had purchased a ranch, and I still live there today. And there was a couple living on it that were the caretakers, an old gentleman named Louis Avila and his wife Clara. And there was this old blue Jeep there, and Louis took me for a ride in this blue Jeep. He gets me up there on the top side of the place, and there's this lake up there that fed all the pastures, and he says, "Well, tell me, how does a young man like yourself have enough money to buy a place like this?" And I said, "Well, just lucky, Louis, just real lucky." And he said, "Well, that's the darnedest thing I ever heard." And I wrote this song for him.  He tells a similar story when introducing the song at a February 23, 1971 performance broadcast by the BBC (in which he says that he purchased the ranch from "two lawyers.")

 A FEMALE CARDINAL IN OUR FRONT YARD 
GROANER'S CORNER:(( A journalist assigned to the Jerusalem bureau takes an apartment overlooking the Wailing Wall. Every day when she looks out, she sees an old Jewish man praying vigorously.  So, the journalist goes down and introduces herself to the old man.  She asks, "You come every day to the wall. How long have you done that, and what are you praying for?"  The old man replies, "I have come here to pray every day for 25 years.  In the morning I pray for world peace and then for the brotherhood of man.  I go home, have a cup of tea, and I come back and pray for the eradication of illness and disease from the earth."  The journalist is amazed.  "How does it make you feel to come here every day for 25 years and pray for these things?" she asks.  The old man looks at her sadly.  "Like I'm talking to a wall."

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- What do you call a bee that lives in America?  A USB.
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I was out last Sunday morning -- I didn't see any signs, nobody to ask, so I lit a cigarette. This woman nearby began shrieking. 'Put it out, please, put it out'. I turned around and saw that she was only three pews away!
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Last year I replaced several windows in my house and they were the expensive double-pane energy efficient kind. But this week I got a call from the contractor complaining that his work has been completed for a whole year and I had yet to pay for them.
Boy oh boy did we go 'round. Just because I'm fair haired lady doesn't mean that I am automatically stupid. So, I proceeded to tell him just what his fast-talking sales guy had told me last year.  He said that in one year the windows would pay for themselves. There was silence on the other end of the line so I just hung up and I haven't heard back. Guess I must have won that silly argument.
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Al's Doggy World

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Kelly's Corner

 RELAXING IN THE DESERT WE LOVED SO MUCH
 MAKING COOKIES AT HER MOM'S PLACE IN SPENCERPORT NEW YORK
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13 comments:

  1. Al, try the I phone Text messages, the banks will send a verification code to your phoes text message

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  2. Sending prayers your way to help ease your pain. It is overwhelming to get everything in order after the loss of your loved one.

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  3. Perhaps you could go back to the Library and have the tech person set ur phone up for Siri. I did that for hubby. When someone calls tell Siri to answer phone. When you want to call someone you tell Siri call Bud Smith, Bud would gave to be in contact list, or the bank, doctor etc. makes using the phone much easier. Hope it works for you.

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  4. We all need a day of sunshine and the sunshine of Kellie's smile and Pheebs presence... and Al's beautifully crafted blog. I hear your hurt and feel your pain... HUGS! marva

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  5. What you are going through is hard and painful,Al . I'm glad you're writing the truth so we can still have the real
    story of what's going on with you and Pheebs .
    I hope you both sleep soundly tonight -Mary






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  6. Al, these tech problems aren't just yours. I get similar stuff happening all the time, drives me insane (short trip, ha ha). Your friend Richard, how is he on tech thingies? Maybe the two of you can figure the problem(s) out...two heads are better than one, it's said. If not, maybe the Library person can recommend someone who lives near your Park...maybe a university student...who could come to your house and fix things in your comfortable surroundings. I know how sadness can overwhelm but you have the presence of mind to know that a ray of sunshine is right around the next cloud...and there it is! A better day.
    And Pheebs is also missing Kelly...just that nobody can explain it to her. But dogs know...

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  7. (Kawartha Gal)
    Difficult days for sure…you are bound to feel sad and many other feelings you have.
    ((((Hugs))))
    My online banking five the options of code sent or verification question.
    I’m sure your bank will help you figure it out

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  8. Al, I do believe you said you have a flip phone, which you like much better. Ask the Bank to change the phone number from the iPhone to the Flip Phone...the verification code is just sent as a Text Message...when you get the message and read it the code will be in the body of the text message. These verification code numbers typically are only good for like 10-15 minutes, then they won't work. Most likely you will need a code every time you try to access the account from a computer you have not used, and then with my bank, they ask for it just about once per month. Hang in there guy.... Dave

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  9. Hope you come up with a way to use the bank app. I feel the same way about Yuma. Hate to see him getting older.

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  10. Technology can be so very frustrating. I'm sure we've all been there at one time or another. I know I have... and still do. My husband had a cerebral hemorrhage which left him with brain damage and physical limitations. He can't do anything anymore much less the computer and he was the one who handled all the finances via the computer. I had a LOT of learning to do which included buckets of tears. You'll get there. I'd recommend asking the library if they could recommend a computer person to help you one on one. You could also see if there's a computer club around town and contact them for one of the members to come and help you. There are people who are very willing to do this. Don't hesitate to ask. My best to you for a brighter day ahead.

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  11. Have you thought about possibly adding a new furry friend to your family at some point?

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  12. You mentioned carrying a note pad in your pocket for years. It might be time to make notes on how to use your phone.
    Be Safe.

    It's about time.

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  13. Even with your frustrating evening, it's great to hear your enthusiasm outside in the sunshine. Surprising to see all that green with so much snow still on the ground and roads! Love the colorful women with their pots and that peaceful boat afloat on the bright water.

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